Sunday, March 20, 2011

All that is solid melts into air ...

Sister Klaus Kumari in an exclusive extract from The Confessional Comments:

If God, Self, guru and devotee are one and if that unity is simultaneously real and unreal and we therefore are not totally existent, I can only conclude that we maybe exist. I can confirm that, I always thought it was a kind of suppressed madness in myself, but now the clouds have lifted and I am standing naked in the blazing sun of Awareness and Sister Klaus will shine forever as a Maybe!

There are some events that fracture us along lines of dissonance, causing the identity to fragment and disintegrate. Likewise there are some that cause the identity to clench and harden. Moments like Radha Ma's death are the poisoned darts that speed towards our deepest doubt: our deepest doubt that we truly exist! Events that strike at the heart of us - unnerve us and cause us to question - reveal our deep uncertainty about the nature of existence. With the disintegration of presumed identity, the mirror of separation can finally shatter ...

As Karl Marx said: "All that is solid melts into air, all that is holy is profaned!" A natural opening is possible when, with the death of the alleged individual, a colossal energy demands to be integrated. Our sense of cast iron identity, once present in material form, destabilises. This energy strikes at the root of our belief in anything solid or real - and at this point we are subject to something far greater.

The ego - that hard, crystallised tower of views and conceit - resides at the epicentre of this seismic shock to the system. But we never know when the tidal wave of destruction will come. This dissolution and its internal alchemy is a wondrous thing. Like quicksilver it runs through our conceptual hands, evading futile attempts to imprison its magic and luxuriant mystery.

Apparently we live in tumultuous times: tsunamis, nuclear meltdown, uprisings in the Middle East, ever-rising food prices ... and self-immolating gurus! These all add spice to the Society of the Spectacle that feeds our apocalyptic imagination. But the apocalypse is not the end of society or the world as we know it ... it is the death of the self.

Enjoy the ride, it's gonna get helter skelter ...

Thursday, March 17, 2011

The good shepherd

For those who have eyes to see and ears to hear:
(With thanks to Dennis ... )

There is an Eastern tale which speaks about a very rich magician who had a great many sheep. But at the same time this magician was very mean. He did not want to hire shepherds, nor did he want to erect a fence about the pasture where his sheep were grazing. The sheep consequently often wandered into the forest, fell into ravines, and so on, and above all they ran away, for they knew that the magician wanted their flesh and skins and this they did not like.

At last the magician found a remedy. He hypnotized his sheep and suggested to them first of all that they were immortal and that no harm was being done to them when they were skinned, that, on the contrary, it would be very good for them and even pleasant; secondly he suggested that the magician was a good master who loved his flock so much that he was ready to do anything in the world for them; and in the third place he suggested to them that if anything at all were going to happen to them it was not going to happen just then, at any rate not that day, and therefore they had no need to think about it. Further the magician suggested to his sheep that they were not sheep at all; to some of them he suggested that they were lions, to others that they were eagles, to others that they were men, and to others that they were magicians.

And after this all his cares and worries about the sheep came to an end. They never ran away again but quietly awaited the time when the magician would require their flesh and skins!

P. D. Ouspensky, In Search of the Miraculous, Fragments of an Unknown Teaching.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Where angels fear to tread ....

Had a bad day at the office? 

Is your Messiahship in doubt because of defections to a sleazy Jamaican Rasta or just plain pissed off because Satan's favourite daughter has just gone up in smoke? Don't worry, help is at hand! Contact Chi-Ting Gurus Anonymous and we will put you back on track ...

From the plethora of banal and vacuous spiritual platitudes flying around the internet about Radha Ma, we have concluded that a moronic level of pseudo Love & Light posturing is becoming all persuasive, hence this little missive.

BEWARE of the likes of Alan Jacobs (he almost died a pathetic death of neglect at Radha's hand whilst living in Tiru 5 years ago) who proclaims the gospel of Advaita from the pulpit of that North London uptight gentleman's club, the hopelessly misguided Ramana Maharshi Society. His deeply dualistic, one-sided perspective attempts to hush up the nasty and sordid misdemeanours under the surface. Perhaps the most "insincere aspirant" is Jacobs himself, who peddles the respectability of his own views, minus the darker side of the same reality which he scorns as "slanders" made by "unscrupulous persons".

... Also Papaji Policewoman in collusion with Richard Clarke (Richard Arunachala, yawn, vomit!) who has churned out the most dire, sycophant commentary you have ever seen in your life on the "amazing, beautiful time" of Radha Ma's questionable end.

Meanwhile there is the incontrovertible evidence that Radha Ma was not some divine Saint but flirting with the dangerous and wholly unnecessary practices of entity worship and tantrism (dodgy real estate deals too!) as part of her nefarious claim that she was enlightened.

Dualism splits reality: good versus evil. It takes one side of the equation and rails against its opposite. But non-dualism goes beyond this conceptual, moral framework. What happened to Radha Ma reminds us that reality is a mixture of light and dark, good and bad. The two can never be divorced.

So who has the courage to get their hands a little dirty and see through this sanitized Love & Light confection of reality that always stops short of leaping into the abyss? Can we go further than saying Radha was either a saint or a demon?

Putting anyone up on a pedestal to this extent makes the mistake that the guru is ultimately real. But this reinforces separation and is entirely "missing the mark" (the original Aramaic definition of sin!) What you see before you is simultaneously real and unreal (it is and it isn't!). The guru is therefore NOT totally existent.

Geddit?! All we can say in exasperation is ... "JESUS WEPT!"

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Beyond good and evil ...

Faisal said [about Radha Ma]:

Well it is confirmed 100% that she is dead due to severe burns... 80% of her body was burnt & when she reached the hospital she had 10% chance to live... My brother saw her body today in Tiru they will bury the body in the ashram.

I still don't know how it happened but from experience with her I guess as usual she was trying to show that she is beyond death & that she had powers "sidhis", but this time it went in a total unexpected way & the fire ate her to death. She used to burn herself with hot metal or pierce her body with needles or cut it with knives etc to confirm that she is beyond all of this ... Most of the people I know who knew her feel shocked but happy at the same time because they think it is a relief for her students.

It is the furthest from truth that she did it on purpose in the name of self-immolation as she is so attached to her students.

Her students received a good amount of burns too trying to put the fire out so it is obvious that all of this was not planned as "self-immolation".

Dealing with black magic & dark forces is not a joke & it leads to insanity & great imbalance in the brain. She used to tell me "You have no idea what 'they' will do to me if I don't obey them" + she wanted me to worship her body & tread the tantric path in the promise of great sidhis. She asked me to write about her etc ..... Fortunately with the support of grace I was able to leave within 3 months but it took me about 8 months after I left to clean all the mental debris & confusion of being with her.

I know by heart that she dealt with the dark forces intensively & she controlled her devotees thru fear. I remember one night I did something that upset her & I left home & that night hell broke loose as all kinds of dark entities were laughing & whispering in my mind & I saw black ghosts in my house as "her" roaming in my house & even though the house was sealed shut by nets it was full with hundreds of mosquitoes. It was a mad night full of terror & I was on the verge of insanity. I have heard over & over again that she is satin "PURE EGO" incarnate. She used to say my job isn't to destroy mind but to create mind & she told me many times I can destroy a thousand Buddhas & bring back mind to any one. "HER CLAIMS"

Despite all the above it was one of the greatest experiences to teach me so many things. I might be attacked by for sharing this but nothing can stop me from sharing my own personal experience.


Monday, March 7, 2011

Suicide in the bunker ...

We are stunned and totally shocked by the news that Radha Ma died on Sunday, March 6th after an act of self-immolation the previous day at her ashram. She was rushed to hospital with 90% burns but doctors could not save her life.

It is rumoured that she left a letter blaming 3 of her former devotees who had become disenchanted with her after real estate problems!

There was also a pending sexual harassment case brought by one of Radha's devotees against the ashram's former caretaker. It has even been whispered that Radha was the guiding hand behind the case, which turned into a vicious dogfight. Emails where she threatened Yama (death) to one of her ex-devotees had recently been passed to lawyers.

Her funeral has been held today and it is said she will be interred as a saint. The question arises would a Saint commit suicide and lay the blame at the feet of those who had left the fold? And why was it necessary to kill herself in such a dramatic and painful way over petty legal wrangling?

With a horrid sense of hindsight, it might have been wiser if she had heeded the advice of Yogi Ramsuratkumar. Apparently he personally warned her,"not to play the role of a guru."